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[29 Mar 2006|12:36pm] [ mood | bored ] So I dont think I even have any friends on here anymore.. its just been wayy to long since ive updated on here. life is going pretty good... still living in boston changed my major to social work, and im loving it!! i work for the hottest night club in boston.. so its always a good time friends are friends.. an their usually bitchy drama filled lives. i try to keep myself out of it. so all and all i guess im pretty happy. cant complain... but ya... because i never update here.. if anyone does happe to read this... then here is my screen name and my myspace link.. since myspace is the new craze!! s/n: fallennightsky myspace: http://www.myspace.com/emma143x so find me there :) and be my friend! haha byee xx 1 vision xxxx see the light! xx

[14 Oct 2005|01:13pm] [ mood | excited ] HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME !!!!!!!!!!!! I CANT BELIEVE IM 20 !! NO MORE TEENAGER FOR ME! hitting up the club with some girls from school tonight. and Jocelyn and Erica are coming from home to spend the night too !!! I cant wait... best birthday ever so far <33 xx 1 vision xxxx see the light! xx

[12 Sep 2005|09:36am] So I never update anymore... I know. I love my new school. I love my friends, I basically love everything about it right now. Except for the classes part. They suck !! I have two 3 hour classes in a row on Thursdays. And it sucks !!! But as for now I really need to go get dressed and get ready for class <33 xx see the light! xx

[31 Aug 2005|10:29pm] Its been a long time sense I have written in here. Its been a crazy summer of working 80 hour weeks. But I made it through. I am doing a few last minute shopping and packing. I move into school on Friday. So tomorrow is my last day in the wonderful NA !!! I am soo excited to move into school, to be in Boston, and just start all over. I am so happy to not be going back to Hartford. Ya know its amazing, I didnt talk to one person from Hartford all summer after I left. Its pretty amazing the kind of "friends" I supposidly made. It shows nobody was really a true friend at all..... but this year will be all different !! No more making friends with immature little bitches. This time im not putting up with anyones shit. You either want to be my friend or not. And thats it... okay back to some more crazy packing. xx see the light! xx

[18 Jul 2005|06:48am] [ mood | exhausted ] my life is so crazy. I dont even have time to sleep. I have no time to myself to relax, see friends, or do anytthing ! I work 7:30-4 at the summer camp, mon-fri. then i work 5 days a week at friendly's 5-11, or weekends 1-9. So most days I go from working 8 hours at camp, straight to 6 hours at friendly's. It is fucking crazy. I am so exhausted, I am making myself sick. And I just feel as though im going to collapse !!! I cant handle working 75 hours a week anymore !!!!! xx see the light! xx

[29 May 2005|12:02pm] i officially start working at friendly's on tuesday. i cant wait ! i cant wait to start making some money. and then come july ill be working at the summer camp too, and ill be making soooo much. over 600$ a week !! :) im seeing my dad this afternoon. we had to switch days, because my brother is now working at the gas stations on sundays. Then im hopefully seeing Jocelyn after. I love that girl ! thats really it. Im still exhausted.... im always tired, and I dont do anything !!! okay i gotta go get ready to go out... byee -have a good day everyone ! xx 1 vision xxxx see the light! xx

[24 May 2005|11:14pm] oh ya... one more positive... I MADE DEANS LIST !!!!! WOOOOOOOOOHHHHHHHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO xx 1 vision xxxx see the light! xx

[24 May 2005|11:11pm] few quick updates.... + got a job !!!! besides the summer camp which starts in july, i am now a waitress at the friendly's restaurant in Lawrence !!! come by and visit :) + i have been hanging out a lot with Jocelyn. Just like the old days of high school... its gunna be a crazy summer now that the dynamic duo is back together. All we need now is Erica to leave her cave of an apartment and come out too !!! + me and jason are still as amazing as ever <3 + joined weight watchers... again! hopefully this time I can stay truly commited. Ive already lost about 9 pounds in the past 2 weeks. go me !! - I am incredibly poor. I have no gas in my car, no ciggs to smoke. and no nothing :( + BUT I DO HAVE A JOB !!! that is all <3 xx 4 visions xxxx see the light! xx

[14 May 2005|11:29am] So I got my grades back from last semester.... and I am soooo happy !!! Special Education: A Understanding yourself and others (Education): A- Psychology: B+ English: A So my GPA for the semester is a 3.74 and my cumulative GPA is 3.34 i am soooooooooooooo happy :) :) :) my goal was to bring my GPA up to a 3.7, and I did it !!! xx see the light! xx

[11 May 2005|01:42pm] [ mood | ecstatic ] I AM DONE WITH MY FRESHMAN YEAR OF COLLEGE ! I AM DONE AT THE UNIVERSITY OF HARTFORD FOREVER!! ya sorry i am a little bit excited. i am so happy to be home. so happy to be closer to my friends, family and jason. i am just all around happy right now !!!! no more stupid immature bullshit at school. this summer is going to be like all the rest... AMAZING! xx 1 vision xxxx see the light! xx

Ana.... [22 Apr 2005|12:48am] [ mood | sad ] [ music | bone thugs - crossroads ] I got a call at about 7:30am yesterday from Elaine, my friend Justin's mom. She said that something terrible happened. Jason's best friend Joey, his mom had a heart attack and passed away at about 3am Tuesday night/Wednesday morning. She had been having pains in her arm and chest all week. She finally went to the doctors Tuesday evening. They said that it was a pinched nerve so they gave her muscle relaxants. it relaxed her muscles so much, that she did not even feel that she was having a heart attack until she collapsed. And she didnt make it. All I can think about is how much of an amazing woman she was. She was the kind of woman that was everyones mom. I would always go over and talk with her, and joke around with her and her 8 year old daughter, while Jason hung out with her 2 older sons. She would tell some crazy stories, and had a voice where you knew she was coming from miles away. She had a way about herself that no matter how sad or upset you were, she always got a smile about her. I really had some amazing talks with her, and if me and Jason were fighting, she was always the shoulder I ran to, to cry on. She was definetly considered everyone's mother. She just celebrated her 40th birthday 2 weeks ago..... So I came home yesterday afternoon. I will stay home for the wake, and leave Sunday night to go back to school. Ill have to miss the funeral. All I wanted to do was wrap my arms around her daughter Samantha, and never let go. But Samantha is too young to understand. She was still runinng around and smiling and playing, while everyone around her was xrying. It wont hit her until she all of a sudden realizes that mommy isnt around anymore. It didnt hit me until last night when I saw her kids, and everyone else. We all cryed, hugged and drank together.. in memory of Ana. Thats how she would of wanted it to be... us celebrating her life with drinks... because she would of had a huge glass right with the rest of us, and would of been the most wasted of us all !!! xx see the light! xx

[19 Apr 2005|12:31pm] i have been feeling so shitty lately :( my head is still killing, my whole body has been aching and shakey. i just feel horrible. and this medecine makes me hands and fingers numb and painful. and it is soo uncomfortable. i feel like shit :( i want to go back to bed. but people are very loud !! i am ALMOST done !!! and i cant wait !! i cant wait to see my girls :) :) :) xx see the light! xx

[15 Apr 2005|09:32am] [ mood | annoyed ] i cant wait to leave this school.... i got woken up three times because people are so inconsiderate !!! i got woken up 3 times by screaming people. first it was the guy upstairs. it sounded like he was doing construction !!! but then he got quiet and it was everyone else around. I was so annoyed. At like 11 its fine, but once its after midnight, its just rude !! you know people sleep, and people have to be awake early. so just maybe show some respect. Im really upset and pissed off. I cant wait to leave this place in less than 3 weeks... im just so aggrivated !!! xx see the light! xx

[11 Apr 2005|08:16pm] so only 3 weeks of classes exactly 13 days left :) i CANNOT wait !! i move into Wheelock on Sept. 2nd. and classes start Sept. 7th :) wooohoooo xx see the light! xx

[05 Apr 2005|02:54pm] i havent written in here in forever. just thought id say hi. im working my ass off at school, to bring my GPA up to a 3.7. right now I have 3 A's and a B. and im taking my history class pass/fail. that way i dont fuck up my GPA. because im doing horribly. i am so exhausted. and i have a huge psych exam tonight. and so much shit and papers to write. 4 weeks till my freshman year of college is over !!!!!!!!! xx see the light! xx

[25 Mar 2005|11:18am] [ mood | sick ] so lets sum up the most horrible spring break ever.... friday i go to the neurologist, and he decides that on Monday, I need to have a spinal tap done. friday night I go over to Yoky's and get to see all my girls <33 sunday evening my mom goes into her room, to find my dog cassy laying on the ground not breathing. We had her for 10 years.... and she passed away out of nowhere :'( :'( sunday night, jason got arrested.... but thats a whole different story im not getting into. monday morning i go and get a spinal tap. which was the most painful thing ever. he hit a nerve when he stuck the needle in, and i have never felts so much pain ever. tuesday was feeling really shitty with really bad headaches and couldnt get out of bed. wednesday i decided to try to eat something. BAD IDEA. I got so sick, that I literally couldnt move. and it went on all week... so now here it is on Friday... and i am still not supposed to be out of bed, i have to stay lying flat, to try and keep my spinal fluid pressure even. -the spinal tap did find that i have really high pressure in my spine and head. you are supposed to be at 20, and im at 36 i think.... so im on medecine for most likely FOREVER. and im so sick because he took some fluid to test it, and some is leaking out for the needle, that my pressure has dropped really low. what a spring break.... and i dont want to go back to school at all :( HELP xx see the light! xx

[16 Mar 2005|10:31pm] so i completly forgot to post this... but i got accepted to wheelock college !!! which means i can transfer the fuck out of hartford! so watch out Boston... ill see you in the fall. And I cannot wait to be home with my friends and family for good !!! wooohoooo. get me the hell out of hartford! xx see the light! xx

[10 Feb 2005|09:46pm] so I am buying myself a new car. And I am so happy. The people that I babysit for, down here in Hartford, are selling their car. It is a Toyota Tercel. Its 2 door, light green and only has 77,000 miles on it !! and of course it is standard !!! id never drive an automatic again ;)It is soooo cute !!! The book value is well over 1,000$, but sense I am very good friends with the family, from babysitting their daughters, they are selling it to me for only 500$. So my mom is lending me the $$, and I am paying her back by the end of the summer. And basically im going to work my ass off this summer. But sense im going to school in Boston next year, ill have no problem working in the city, so ill have a steady income during school too. haha I cant wait to drive my new car !!!!! xx see the light! xx

[18 Jan 2005|02:57pm] So im back at school... moved back in yesterday. :( i had the most amazing month off !! me and jason are perfect. we have never been better. and I am so happy. but then I had to come back here. but in 4 months.. I will be home for good ! and I cant wait !! So I have new classes, and a new schedule. So im starting off all new ! here the schedule for this semester Monday- 8:30-9:45 Understanding Yourself and Others (education class) 11:30-1 Psychology of Exceptionalities (special education class) Tuesday- 8-9:10 Reading and Writing 7:10pm-9:50pm Psychology 101 Wednesday- 8:30-9:45 Understanding Yourself and Others (education class) 11:30-1 Psychology of Exceptionalities (special education class) 7pm-9:30pm Discovering America 1945-present Thursday- 8-9:10 Reading and Writing AND THATS IT !! no friday classes, and only 1 class on thursday and me and nikky have 3 classes together, including the 2 night classes. so its going to be a very good semester !! xx see the light! xx

[24 Dec 2004|01:08pm] got all my grades from this past semester... intro to education B- sociology C+ (how did i pull that off?) American Government B+ Reading & Writing B Contemporary Math A- how the fuck did I get an A in college math, when i couldnt even pass high school math. i always failed Miss L's class in HS... and got kicked out for the year from Dinsmore's my senior year. xx 1 vision xxxx see the light! xx

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